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Reclaiming my life with your supernatural power of trust, love, order, health. I am far from perfect! But, I have potiential like no ther, passion like no other, want & need without shame! I know what I want out of the rest of my life on this earth! I have never been married, rebuilders life & home, raised myself in a way with the guidance of family & lifestyle. I have felt isolated, abandoned, ashamed, unwanted, ugly, stupid, judged, lost, hallow, shallow! No more! There is a beautiful intense strong perfect reason why I want to live an successful accomplish the materialistic as well reputation of the factual humanity of what I really am the inner child, daughter, mother, friend, neighbor!! There is a perfect reason why I want to go forward in this very minute in life !! Is has to do with me & GOD! Not the approval of anyone else everyone else has shown me all the living I stare at, cry at, have dwelled for, wished for, emotional worked for everything I have thought, said, learned to in hopes of getting the experience of life, live, communication !! Memories!!! My life! All that I have thought life was about & the fears that have almost killed me many times!! No more! My thought process , ideas, communication, prayers, knowing anything in this life!! On this earth with all humanity, society, masses of all kinds of people nationalities religions appearances, beliefs ! NO more I pray for all help that I do not care what others believe against me!! The Lord an infinite relationship! Is everything I need in this body he wants me to live, succeed, love, be rich in all, be beautiful, honest in society , pay bills money has been against me!! It’s time I’m not affaird of anything concerning money an rebuild! I’m not alone! I want to become someone on this earth! Quit being just another mess up, another nothing bc I’m stupid, alone, insane all the labels I am not!! Every person that has contributed to the havoc of poverty, stupidity, addiction, depression, deathly money problems keep away from me lord , protect me now,!! I turn over a new leaf of direction to get out of debt, we don’t want to loose our home, go to jail, be abused , blamed, NO MORE! The fear has almost killed me an did nothing but set us back so much where we need professional help direction!! Education a real fighting chance with results !! Did you hear that GOD we and I know the results of BAD, NOTHING FEAR POOR IGlY we got to live it everyday all the results! People hear me now!! No one on this beautiful earth wants to experience live life we have lived it an we are not druggies or all the names an negative thought others have done! We need all I have prayed for !! They all got to use me & everything I have lived for to keep alive hoping praying one moment it all changes bc that’s how life works good & bad! I have nevered been saved from all this havoc! Restore me now lord I will not let you or anyone down! But I need all of me & support! All of me enternally an externally all old patterns that bring poverty despair no safety at ALL!! Get me out of! I want & need people who love me will except all of me help me lord!! This last chance in the world to embrace goodness prosperity fruits of my labor all restore & protect me no matter what anyone thinks or knows about me !!life living materialistic things is what keeps me going in life all the results just in analogy of all the experiences of havoc went through that are not materialistic & need witness or metal abuse for all these years I need that materialistic result of goodness from all my hard work, good change as a character all of it! And whom all pray for restore an protection you would’ve changing over 25 years of abuse an nothing to show for but close to death & misunderstanding as well just thrown away trash bc it just fits the lie of a life not the truth but purged fear truth!! Restore the beautiful in me now & protect! Restore the beautifull in my physical brain,! And protect ! Help me Protect me from authorities that just believe what they see poverty & stupidity ignorance!! The same hate an havoc everyday ! Health education marriage spirituality I’m 48 years old my life has been nothing but helping others an giving away my life when I never wanted too! When I was thought about wha is best for me of others labels an thought process to be used up! I love life everything about it to the moon & stars to the roots of the life I fight for to the air we breathe begging for financial miracle support from anything, anyone, an myself!! No one could or would survive what me an my boy has !! So I’m asking this day !! Everything witnessed be forgiven an opened minded, everything that we have experienced has made things so worse !! Try the goodness in this universe the goodness in patterns, behaviors, my son & I miscommunication in not knowing an knowing, the good o er bad the goodness in education, health diagnosis, TIME! Numbers !!This very time, moment, thought, direction, heart beat of America 🇺🇸 god lord restore & protect physical & mental ME!!